2013-01-28

stormdog: (Tawas dog)
2013-01-28 08:20 am

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What strange and interesting dreams. Very tied in to escapist daydreams I had as a boy, hoping and imagining that a portal to some other world would present itself to me and bring me to a magical place. Some of it was depressing too, but I'd like to read the book.

At least I'm feeling much mentally better this morning! I'm looking forward to being back at the archives.
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
2013-01-28 09:13 am

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First world problem of the morning: it's too cold to wear the jacket that I like 'cause I think I look good in it. I have to wear my winter coat. Sad.

Speaking of sad, I noticed last night that when I look at myself in the mirror when I'm feeling down, I think my hair actually looks shorter to me. Brains are weird.
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2013-01-28 07:02 pm

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My head is off today. So rather than editing photos or working on Spanish, I'm going to clean and organize my room again tonight. Having clean space makes me feel good.

But I'm going to put away all my Japanese language material into a box, and that kind of makes me sad again 'cause I really miss learning Japanese. But I really will come back to it. It just makes more sense to get a better handle on Spanish first, and it makes sense not to fill up shelf space in my room with books I haven't used in a long time. So it'll be ok, right?
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2013-01-28 07:10 pm

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Crap. I just realized that one of my textbook orders got cancelled 11 days ago due to lack of availability and I didn't see the cancellation email until today.
stormdog: (Kira)
2013-01-28 07:47 pm

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Hey, woah. Wait a minute. Class starts on Monday. Monday. Seven days away. Wow.
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2013-01-28 09:26 pm

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It's amazing how much difference in headspace I just made by eating a bunch of pizza. I don't think I'm going to eat any more mac and cheese. If I try to manage what I eat, it's very calorically dense and doesn't keep me full very long, so I don't have enough food in me later and and my brain is unhappy.
stormdog: (floyd)
2013-01-28 10:02 pm

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Every sci-fi writer needs to listen to this episode of Radiolab. The experience that astronaut Dave Wolf talks about here is awe-inspiring and horrifying and amazing.

http://www.radiolab.org/blogs/radiolab-blog/2012/oct/08/dark-side-earth/
stormdog: (floyd)
2013-01-28 10:21 pm

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I know I already noted that food made a huge difference in my state of mind tonight, but in retrospect, I'm still pretty amazed at it.

I went from feeling very lethargic and anxious and mildly depressed, much as I was feeling last night, to feeling a state that I'd almost describe as manic after eating. I was feeling very positive with moments of elation as I thought about the things I wanted to accomplish. I attached my switch to the wall up here and have dug into getting these laptops set up again and life seems very positive and under control, like it was prior to yesterday evening.

I'd been confused about this spell of malaise. So recently, I told myself, I'd been thinking consciously about how good everything seemed to be and how well I was in control of most aspects of my life. Then, poof. And now it's pretty much back. It's the clearest experience I think I've had of brain chemicals and blood sugar and everything else associated with food affecting emotional and cognitive state.

I'm going to avoid Kraft Macaroni and Cheese in the future, I think. It's the common factor in the two days I've felt off. And it's probably not the brand; just the food-type.

Looking back on my posts, I went so quickly from posting mildly sad things looking for reassurance to being completely positive and self-reliant. It's a little disturbing to me.
stormdog: (floyd)
2013-01-28 11:01 pm

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I want to ask you, if you have time, to tell me about how you visualize people you haven't seen in person.

There was this amazing discussion on Radiolab just now between and about two blind people. Both of them were born sighted and lost their sight later in life.

One of them reacted by choosing to consciously expunge any visual imagery from his internal world. When something would bring up a visual memory, he pushed it away, purposefully forgot about it. The second person reacted go going blind by visualizing everything around him very intensely by proceeding from his remaining sense. He goes up on his roof and replaces shingles, for example, because he feels he can picture his surroundings well enough to do it safely. (This disturbs his neighbors, apparently.) He can describe subtle nuances of his wife's face even though he's never seen it.

Near the end, there was a talk about whether it's possible for human beings to relate emotionally to another person without some kind of visual image to attach to the concept of person. Someone on the radio, for example. People will create an image of that person in their head, and then might be very surprised when they see that person for the first time and he/she does not fit their image. This made me think, too, of a talk I had with someone about an assignment for a class where people interacted with various people online and then had to write about what they thought those people looked like. A clear assumption was being made that the students would have formed mental images of the people they interacted with online.

I do not do that. If I only know someone online, I do not create any kind of mental image of them. If I hear their voice on the radio, I sometimes have a guess at their ethnicity by accent or other sound qualities, but I know that I'm sometimes wrong about those guesses. And I'm certainly not able to construct an imagined portrait.

But I think the way visual perception of people works for me is very outside the mainstream because of being prosopagnosic. Faces aren't really that important to me. When I think about the people I know, it's very difficult for me to imagine their faces; other things are more important, like conversations I've had with them, experiences I've shared with them, and more abstractly, my non-visual experiences *of* them.

I think I'm going to ask a few people how they do this in their own heads. Whether they imagine what people look like before they meet them. Whether they can have an emotional connection to a person whose appearance they don't know without forming some kind of image, however vague, of what they look like. I'm going to ask here, even.

Here's the Radiolab piece that inspired this line of thought. I love NPR. I'm going to buy a membership to WBEZ when my financial aid disburses.

http://www.radiolab.org/blogs/radiolab-blog/2012/oct/22/seeing-dark/