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Scared About School : Historic Preservation and Legitimization of Perception of Space
This morning, I realized that, rather than feeling stressy about all the stuff coming due at the end of this month, I'd moved on to feeling scared. There's a great deal to do and I'm running out of time. This month is going to be a rush to get papers and take-home tests and presentations done.
I'm going to have to settle for not doing as much research on everything as I'd wish. Between the extra work and my dad being in the hospital, this semester has gotten a little bit away from me. I reminded myself, on my walk through the campus to work this morning, that it's not like I'm looking at failing classes or anything. More likely, it means I'll be looking at some Bs instead of my record so far of three semesters of straight As. While I'll be disappointed in myself if it comes to that, it is a survivable outcome, and one that will have taught me a bit about managing work load. Still, I wish I was smart/dedicated/efficient/what-have-you enough to have gotten everything done the way I'd like to have, and I feel like I have failed in not having done so.
On another topic, though I was originally going to write my urbanism term paper about walkable community development, I've changed my mind. The catalyst, oddly enough, was my visit with the anthro club to the Cahokia mounds on Sunday. It made me think about historic preservation happening there and contrast it to modern historic preservation and the ideology behind such actions. I'll write about my thoughts on that here when I have more time. (I atually have six files on my thumb drive in a folder called "writing" that are just individual notes about topics I want to write on in depth in my various blogging platforms when I have time again.) But I want to write about historic preservation in a modern context and think about how those who engage in it can't help but set themselves up as arbiters of what constitutes a legitimate incarnation of the site in question. I think that decisions about what aspect of a site's history to legitimize via preservation can't help but invalidate other uses and incarnations of that site, which each certainly have their own legitimacy to users and occupants.
I'm going to have to settle for not doing as much research on everything as I'd wish. Between the extra work and my dad being in the hospital, this semester has gotten a little bit away from me. I reminded myself, on my walk through the campus to work this morning, that it's not like I'm looking at failing classes or anything. More likely, it means I'll be looking at some Bs instead of my record so far of three semesters of straight As. While I'll be disappointed in myself if it comes to that, it is a survivable outcome, and one that will have taught me a bit about managing work load. Still, I wish I was smart/dedicated/efficient/what-have-you enough to have gotten everything done the way I'd like to have, and I feel like I have failed in not having done so.
On another topic, though I was originally going to write my urbanism term paper about walkable community development, I've changed my mind. The catalyst, oddly enough, was my visit with the anthro club to the Cahokia mounds on Sunday. It made me think about historic preservation happening there and contrast it to modern historic preservation and the ideology behind such actions. I'll write about my thoughts on that here when I have more time. (I atually have six files on my thumb drive in a folder called "writing" that are just individual notes about topics I want to write on in depth in my various blogging platforms when I have time again.) But I want to write about historic preservation in a modern context and think about how those who engage in it can't help but set themselves up as arbiters of what constitutes a legitimate incarnation of the site in question. I think that decisions about what aspect of a site's history to legitimize via preservation can't help but invalidate other uses and incarnations of that site, which each certainly have their own legitimacy to users and occupants.