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Juan came over and fixed my car. How awesome is that? He determined that my ignition control module was dead, and he replaced it with one that he already had at his house on a same model engine. I feel so fortunate to have friends like that.
I'm so inclined to feel like a bad person lately. Not keeping up with family and friends, in person and online. I feel closed-off and isolated, and like not reading and keeping up with social media makes me a bad person too. My grandmother decided a week ago that she shouldn't be driving anymore and gave my family her car. I was going to go with my mother to pick it up from her and drive it home, but I haven't managed to do it. She and a family friend went out to pick it up tonight and I feel terrible about not having gone and seen her even though I was with Juan as he worked on my car.
I talked to her recently and she knows I'm busy. It's just more of the irrational anxiety I wrote about earlier. Downstairs tonight, I talked a little bit about feeling this way and my dad pointed out that my parents had just taken me out for dinner and given me a nice card because I'm *not* a bad person and I have been doing really good things.
Being as busy and anxious as I have been is making me emotionally vulnerable and unstable.
On Thanksgiving weekend, school ends on Wednesday, and I'll be done with the conference and presentation. One day of that break will be a family thing, I'm sure, but I'd like to use the other time to visit people. I want to spend extra time with my grandmother,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
serinthia and todd_riverden, and posicat, particularly. There's nothing major due the week after that won't be done already, so maybe I can take a few days and relax.
I'm so inclined to feel like a bad person lately. Not keeping up with family and friends, in person and online. I feel closed-off and isolated, and like not reading and keeping up with social media makes me a bad person too. My grandmother decided a week ago that she shouldn't be driving anymore and gave my family her car. I was going to go with my mother to pick it up from her and drive it home, but I haven't managed to do it. She and a family friend went out to pick it up tonight and I feel terrible about not having gone and seen her even though I was with Juan as he worked on my car.
I talked to her recently and she knows I'm busy. It's just more of the irrational anxiety I wrote about earlier. Downstairs tonight, I talked a little bit about feeling this way and my dad pointed out that my parents had just taken me out for dinner and given me a nice card because I'm *not* a bad person and I have been doing really good things.
Being as busy and anxious as I have been is making me emotionally vulnerable and unstable.
On Thanksgiving weekend, school ends on Wednesday, and I'll be done with the conference and presentation. One day of that break will be a family thing, I'm sure, but I'd like to use the other time to visit people. I want to spend extra time with my grandmother,
serinthia and todd_riverden, and posicat, particularly. There's nothing major due the week after that won't be done already, so maybe I can take a few days and relax.