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New Shoes!
The shoes I ordered arrived today, and they just make me so happy.
It's hard to explain how good gender affirmation feels. Cute boots with heels and faux-fur trim arrived, and I tried them on, and suddenly I was feeling better than I have since deciding not to go to that movie night. A new top arrived with them, and when I looked in the mirror wearing it I realized that my facial hair is looking pretty patchy after the laser, and that adds to my happiness too. I showered and shaved for the first time in a while, and I actually kind of want to go somewhere (where, I have no idea) now.
I dunno. Maybe if my brain was working better I could be more eloquent. It just feels so good to have these things that, for so long, I didn't know I could have had, or even understand that I wanted.
Gender affirmation is a hell of a drug.
It's hard to explain how good gender affirmation feels. Cute boots with heels and faux-fur trim arrived, and I tried them on, and suddenly I was feeling better than I have since deciding not to go to that movie night. A new top arrived with them, and when I looked in the mirror wearing it I realized that my facial hair is looking pretty patchy after the laser, and that adds to my happiness too. I showered and shaved for the first time in a while, and I actually kind of want to go somewhere (where, I have no idea) now.
I dunno. Maybe if my brain was working better I could be more eloquent. It just feels so good to have these things that, for so long, I didn't know I could have had, or even understand that I wanted.
Gender affirmation is a hell of a drug.