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I'm thinking about looking more deeply into jobs that I would be suited to and qualified for with an MLIS other than working in libraries. It's probably a temporary thing, but between seeing Miriam's struggles with academia's workload and conferences, and just feeling a lot of social anxiety when going to places with other people, I sometimes wish I could find a job that just involves sitting in front a computer pushing data around. If that's at home, amazing. If not, that's ok too.

A friend who's done online sex work (camgirl stuff) said that she could help me get started doing that. Honestly, if I didn't think I'd completely fail at cultivating the necessary persona and be useless at dealing with difficult people, that would be kind of tempting! But I don't think it's for me.

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The way my hair pours in gentle waves down my chest and over my breasts after I shower reminds me of when I first had long hair in my, I think, early teens. I had seen plenty of fantasy novel covers and other art with women (or mermaids, or fem faeries, or what-have-you) painted with their hair strategically concealing those terrible female nipples that society has decided are inappropriate to view. As that young teen, I liked trying to arrange my hair like that, feeling like maybe I was kind of pretty (though I probably wouldn't have used that word): like a mermaid from a fantasy novel.

Still took another 25ish years to figure out that, just maybe, I was trans. I'm slow sometimes.

Anyway, I have new lemony body wash and it smells SO GOOD!