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Train Girl, who I have still not met in person, was broken up with by her long distance girlfriend a few weeks ago, and has not been dealing with it well. In fact, it seems like the whole situation is a giant mess. From the single perspective I have access to, Train Girl's ex has believed and passed along lies about Train Girl and this has resulted in a lot of drama and loss of friends. I talked to her briefly tonight via FB messenger for the first time since this happened. I feel for her, and hurt for her, but - without airing other people's dirty laundry - there are things about the way she's dealing with this that make me hesitate about pursuing that crush I've had on her. I mean, not that I would anyway right now because this is not the time, but still.
I actually just contacted her today because Miriam and I have worked out some parameters regarding Covid Risk and I want SO BADLY to start making in-person friends. I invited her over to watch anime. However, she says she's been talking to her therapist about Covid precautions and that "extreme masking" has been scaring her. I get the impression that she might not be willing to mask as a visitor, though she was a little intoxicated and difficult to understand. So that might not be an option either.
I hate how fucking complicated Covid has made everything.
You know what I really, really want in my life? Queer female and nbi friends who I can get in a cuddle pile with and watch yuri anime, and maybe kiss and snuggle. Not necessarily casual sex, though that would be nice too. I just want more queer, snuggly non-masc folks in my life. I wish I had figured this out before the world went so much to hell. This is actually a thing that people have, right? I hope there's some way I can still have that.
But for now, I'm going to try to figure out how to start reaching out to local people to arrange in-person social time, either one on one or in small groups. I still hurt that I can't go to big parties or restaurants and such, but I'm going to do my best to find the community I can within the risk tolerance I need.
I actually just contacted her today because Miriam and I have worked out some parameters regarding Covid Risk and I want SO BADLY to start making in-person friends. I invited her over to watch anime. However, she says she's been talking to her therapist about Covid precautions and that "extreme masking" has been scaring her. I get the impression that she might not be willing to mask as a visitor, though she was a little intoxicated and difficult to understand. So that might not be an option either.
I hate how fucking complicated Covid has made everything.
You know what I really, really want in my life? Queer female and nbi friends who I can get in a cuddle pile with and watch yuri anime, and maybe kiss and snuggle. Not necessarily casual sex, though that would be nice too. I just want more queer, snuggly non-masc folks in my life. I wish I had figured this out before the world went so much to hell. This is actually a thing that people have, right? I hope there's some way I can still have that.
But for now, I'm going to try to figure out how to start reaching out to local people to arrange in-person social time, either one on one or in small groups. I still hurt that I can't go to big parties or restaurants and such, but I'm going to do my best to find the community I can within the risk tolerance I need.