Trying to Connect

[stormdog]

I have such fear and anxiety about trying to join online communities that it's mostly kept me from trying my entire life. But I finally managed to not get past that fear, but at least sort of disassociate from it long enough to join a T4T Friends/dating Discord server. To get access to the rest of the channels, there's an introduction to fill out that includes age, and I would clearly be one of the oldest people there, if not the oldest. I'm scrolling past a few people in their 30s, but most people are between 18 and their early 20s. I feel like I'll either have no one interested in talking to me, or I'll just look like a creep. And this is exacerbating my fear that, by the time it's possible to significantly reduce Covid restrictions for in-person stuff, I'll be old enough that no one will be interested.

I'm not sure if I can manage to write an intro here.

ETA: I left the server. I could join again later if it seems like something I could do.

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[stormdog]

Thank you. And I know my fears are ageist and I feel bad about that. They're not even in keeping with my own experience: my sweetie Lisa is about 15 years older than me. It's hard to separate the isolation-loneliness from the fear sometimes.