2023-11-06

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2023-11-06 04:08 pm

Voice Training, Accidental Necktie, Kase-san and Morning Glories

Ella is confused by the sounds I make while watching voice training videos and it's pretty adorable. She's sitting in my lap and sometime she looks at my mouth or looks me in the eyes, I think trying to figure out if she should be paying attention or doing something.

A blanket we bought came with a blue satin ribbon as part of the packaging, so I tried to tie it around my neck in a big bow, thinking it would be cute. Then I looked in the mirror and it sort of looked like a necktie. O HAI THERE DYSPHORIA!

I'll just put that ribbon away now. *laughs*

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Yesterday's movie on the treadmill was Kase-san and Morning Glories. (Some spoilers here, in case you're concerned about that.)

The way the two of them communicated was so refreshing! They're not perfect, especially Yamada, but Yamada has never dated anyone before and is trying to figure that out. Kase, on the other hand, seems more experienced, and is caring and thoughtful.

Yamada is too cute for words. She may possibly be too cute and innocent for this world.
There are moments of drama, but they are resolved quickly rather than drawn out into long spans of will-they-won't-they as happens in other media like this I've consumed. One isn't necessarily better than the other, but Kase-san and Morning Glories was almost entirely relaxing, sweet, and positive, and sometimes that's a really great thing.

I was concerned by the choice Yamada makes at the end to go with Kase to Tokyo for university, but that was in part because I didn't quite understand what her original plan was. I don't know if she's ready, in terms of maturity and ability to think about things in the long term, to pack up her life and move somewhere entirely new and far from home to be with a girlfriend - that ended up not working out so well for me - but I also don't think it's as bad a choice as I was first worried it might be. And none of us start out having the experience to make these choices well: sometimes you just have to do them and see what happens, I think.

I would really like to read this manga.

*Adds it to her online wishlist

Wow, I have a lot of yuri in there... And a book about historic industrial architecture of the United States. Niche books on architecture are expensive. 🙁
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2023-11-06 08:27 pm
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r/T4T Personal, Discord

I did find a transfem Discord server to join, and though I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by all the people there, I'm hoping I can connect with folks.

I also spent a little time looking at the T4T subreddit and found a wider range of ages. I just posted a personal there: here's what I wrote

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43 TF4T - Regina, SK: poly, geeky, kinky transgirl looking for cuddles, FWBs, or partners

Hi! I'm a librarian/archivist who's been on HRT for about 1.5 years and out for most of that time.

I spent most of my life terrified of other people and not really knowing how to relate to them as a boy. Turns out that's 'cause I'm not a boy! 😸 I've been around fan/alt culture my whole life - my parents met at a D&D game - and have wanted for a very long time to be involved in the dating and kink scenes that many of the people I knew were, but I couldn't seem to figure out how to do it. I used to think it was because of neurodivergence (I'm a self-diagnosed autistic person), but turns out there was a lot more.

Now that I've realized I'm a girl I think I'm going to be much better at it, and honestly I'd like to make up for lost time.

I have two roadblocks right now. First, I'm kind of out of the way up here in Regina. Second, my nesting partner has chronic health problems and is extra vulnerable to Covid complications, so I need to be much more careful about Covid exposure. That is for sure something that can be worked around for in-person meet ups, but it makes it hard to be part of the social scene. This need to keep somewhat isolated while simultaneously wanting, for the first time in my life, to go out and meet people and date as who I really am, sucks. It sucks a lot.

But I'm hoping I can find ways to meet people that work for me. Maybe this is one of those ways?

Some quick info about me: I'm a geek who used to work in IT, and I love sci-fi/fantasy stuff. I'm a big board gamer and have a bunch of games I far too rarely get to use. I used to be more of a PC gamer than I am now and one of the silly things I'm proud of is getting every achievement in Factorio, which maybe tells you the kinds of things I like to play. Since transitioning, I've realized that I'm a lesbian (I'd thought I was bi for a long time) and have gotten into yuri manga and anime in a kind of embarassing squeeing teenage fangirl sort of way. 😻 I'm into bicycling (I was a year round bike commuter for years and want to ride my first brevet next year), photographing cool old buildings, photographing roadside tourist kitsch (ROADTRIPS!), cuddles (I miss cuddle parties), and bunches of other stuff. I love learning about new things, too: If you're excited about it, I love being the recipient of info dumps!

I'm down for cuddles and chatting with anybody, and honestly one of the things I want *most* in my life right now is people to get comfy on a couch or bed with and watch yuri. For playtime and kink, though, I'm almost exclusively interested in fem and non-binary folks. I could go on forever, and usually I write too much, so I'll stop there. If I sound interesting, please feel free to send me a message. I still get a bit nervous talking to new people, but I'd love to hear from you.