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2023-09-19 09:36 am

General Update

I've been reading some of the yaoi manga I brought up from Kenosha. I had forgotten how over-the-top ridiculous some of these plots are and, honestly? This is pretty close to what I need sometimes these days when my brain is a mess. Absolutely ridiculous plots and hot boys kissing each other.

I've had had my second session with the therapist I booked through Aroha and I really, really like them. The therapist I was seeing in Chicago did so much for me in figuring out a lot of stuff related to my gender, but I feel so understood and empathized with by the therapist here in ways that I haven't experienced before and it's pretty wonderful. Now I need to keep convincing myself to make appointments even though they're expensive and I have no income of my own.

Furniture arrived and I constructed it all over the course of two days. It took more out of me than I expected; it's been a while. We have a real bed frame, and a bookcase in the spare room that I unloaded 4-5 boxes of books onto. There's a little room in there now! This is good since the mattress for the daybed in there is arriving today, supposedly.

I've had a really hard time for years thinking of things to ask for for my birthday. I think, if family wants to get me something for birthday this year though, I'm going to ask for another piercing. My lobe piercings my parents got me last year are really meaningful to me, and I like the idea of these things being connected to people I care about. I'll have to decide which side I want the first helix on, 'cause I'm not getting two at once!

I was looking at the web page of an organization that advocates for bike-friendly policy and encourages cycling, and the image at the head of their page shows a bike with a set of drop bars and friction shifters. And I'm like, you actually *want* new people to start biking, right? For the love of crackers, don't show them 40-year-old bikes with friction shifters!

I've been getting out for bike rides relatively frequently lately and I think it's good for my mental health.
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2023-09-13 09:46 am
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Miriam and I ordered more furniture, including a bed frame, from IKEA on Friday. They said it would be delivered on Saturday, but by the end of the weekend, the status still hadn't even been updated to indicate that it was with TForce, the notoriously bad shipping company IKEA uses. It still said IKEA was preparing our order.

Miriam talked to an agent via chat two days ago and they rescheduled the order for tomorrow the 14th. Status on IKEA's site says that the order has, in fact, been delivered to TForce. The odds don't seem too good that we'll actually get it tomorrow either, but at least there's progress.
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2023-09-11 07:43 pm
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For the first time since I bought this parody CTA safety poster from the artist, I have it framed and hung up! I really love this piece! It's going to move to live over my computer, though, because Miriam, as much as she appreciates the concept and story behind it, thinks its visually hideous. I actually really love it when we find places our tastes clash and can talk about them because it's so unusual for it to happen and leads to funny conversations.

The story: years ago, I was working in Chicago and taking the CTA on the rare occasions I didn't bike for some reason. Someone named Bleh the Buddha was putting an array of stickers up on the Pink Line, covering up the official CTA signage that he was parodying. (The original version of this one, for example, said things like "Listen for instructions," and "Remain on the train".) This is just one example of half a dozen or so that I saw, all of which I think I have pictures of.

I loved these so much that I found him online and wrote him to ask to buy a print. I did, and when I got it in the mail, I shouldn't have been surprised to see that he sent me an actual sticker, not just a print. He signed it too.

I love this piece because I have so many good feelings connected to Chicago and my time there that this brings to mind, and because it's an anarchic reclamation of public space for public art, and because buying it supported a local artist, and because I really think it's really clever and funny.

I miss Chicago a lot, and having this up feels like a little contrarian piece of it with me.

(I got the frame plus matting from a thrift store and did a pretty lackluster job recutting it to fit. I'll do better with it one of these days. But for now, it contributes fairly to Miriam's distaste.)

Oooh! I found a writeup and interview with him! https://southsideweekly.com/bleh-the-buddha-emerging-artist/

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2023-09-03 09:36 pm
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Miriam and I have made it back home to Regina.

I'm not catching up on social media yet, but I'm doing some things to make home feel more like home. I'm very much looking forward to having a peaceful span of time here. I hope.

I hung some of the art pieces that Miriam and I brought back with us. Not all of it yet, but enough to make a difference for me in how it feels to look around my living space. (I'm going to move that spectrum allocation poster somewhere else and out from under the map.)

The first piece is an original Ozzy and Millie cartoon strip that I bought at my first Midwest Fur Fest in 2002. I love that the last panel has white-out from Dana Simpson correcting the lettering or something.

The map, a friend in Kenosha gave me. I guess a few people might look at it and think I have it up because of Disney World, and a few might think I have it up because of Cape Canaveral (which is correct, and why the giver thought I'd like it).

The third piece is a logarithmic-scaled depiction of the known universe. The way that one came to me is a complicated story that I honestly don't know what to feel about, but divorced from that, I like it a lot.

Pictures behind the cut )
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2023-08-13 12:21 am

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Looks like when you don't practice a musical instrument for over a month, you get out of practice. Who knew? I think maybe my mind is at a place where I can do it again.

Miriam and I watched some anime today and it made me think about something for the first time. Is it possible that part (not all!) of the reason I want to learn piano is that, so often in anime with university or high school girls, one of them plays piano? Maaaaaaybe.

This keyboard probably needs to live somewhere else long-term though. It's in the way.



Yesterday, I rode 4½ miles out and 4½ back (sorry for not translating into Canadian) to buy a set of slightly used full coverage fenders for my bike. Plastic ones usually lasted a couple years of daily commutes before the front one broke (It was always the front one; someone should start selling them individually!) and I'd been saying that the next set I buy when I'm commuting again would be nice metal ones. But these plastic ones were about $50 less than I could buy them new, so the deal was too good to pass up. To get them home, I secured them with a couple of bungee cords in an X on top of my cargo rack. Can't do that on a road bike!

I was pretty anxious about whether the seller would have any issues with me being trans, but she was perfectly fine. Maybe some day I'll stop worrying about making people feel misled, or them getting angry at me, or whatever else my brain is telling me might happen. But that day is not today!

The fenders are fine, except that they are black. They *absolutely* need to not be black before I install them so I'm going to spraypaint them or something, possibly with Train Girl's help (if we ever manage to get together in person!).

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After an interaction with an extended family member on my dad's side that made me uncomfortable, I've updated my Facebook profile. If people know that I am a transgender, mostly lesbian, anti-capitalist, apatheist woman before sending me friend requests, maybe it would save folks some time. Though most people never seem to read bios anyway.

Also, I just tried to find a pre-made circular frame for a FB profile photo in trans colors with a message like "protect trans kids" or the like, but was unable to find one. I don't suppose any of you know where to find one? I could probably figure out how to make one in Gimp or Photoshop, but I don't know if I have the energy right now.
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2022-06-30 08:09 pm
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Organizing is (Sometimes) my Self-medication

I'm taking a course this summer and didn't realize that the first three blocks of work were spaced every 2 days, not every week. I realized a couple days before my parents left, and was behind on the second and third part.

I wrote the professor to apologize, caught up on the first part, and finished catching up on the second part yesterday. I'm still pretty anxious about the upcoming work which involves interviewing, but I'll get by.
I'd been too anxious to look at my grades from the Spring semester. I was convinced (as I often am) that I did not do very well. Miriam looked with me to help, and we found that I had two As for my two classes. For this past semester in particular, I find that really difficult to reconcile with my experience of the classes, but that's probably because I at one of the worst points I've been in for a long time, mental health wise. Still managed to get stuff acceptably done though I guess!

With my parents having left and things less chaotic at home, I've been rearranging. Since Miriam's chronic pain makes sitting in a chair for a long time difficult, she's doing a lot of work from the couch. But we also really like being near each other as we're doing our respective things. So I moved the table we had in the space next to our kitchen into the former office/computer room and moved my computer into its place. Bonus: the computer is now near enough to the router that I can run an ethernet cable!

(I'd say kitchen/dining table, but we never really used it for that. I scored it from our complex's dumpster a couple months ago with the intent of using it for games and meals, but it just kind of collected stuff...)
My parents were staying in the office while they were with us, and between that and moving furniture around, it's hugely disorganized in there right now. I'm going to set up the folding table that I also scored from the dumpster a while back as somewhere to work on electronics. I also need to set up my keyboard (music-type) in there again; right now it's on the floor behind the TV and stuff.

Yesterday and today though, I spent a good few hours organizing my music stuff my parents brought with them. Yesterday I picked up a little two-shelf cabinet on rollers from someone on Kijiji for $10. That's where my receiver, CD changer, equalizer, and turntable are living now.

I spreadsheeted the CDs to figure out what order I want them in, then loaded 236 of them into the changer and typed in labels. The changer has a PS/2 keyboard port, which gives you an idea of how old it is. It's super convenient though. If I was stuck using the rotary knob to enter over two hundred titles, those titles would be waiting to be entered for a very long time.

And that's how *I've* been dealing with the current events dumpster fires and sometimes-crippling anxiety and depression. Feeling like I'm in control of my *stuff* helps me feel a bit more in control of my *life*.

Pictures of organized stuff possibly to follow!
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2020-11-26 03:51 pm

Extra Monitor

As I carried the replaced TV through the office to tuck out of the way in the back bedroom, I looked at my computer desk and made a suddenly obvious connection. I started to get things set up to connect it to my computer.

"Is it going to replace your smaller monitor?" Asked Danae.

In an incredulous tone, I responded "No...?" I mean, why would I do that?

My computer desk in my apartment in Molenwijk
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2020-11-15 02:22 pm

Our Front View

This is the view of the park out our front windows, which face into the interior of Molenwijk.
It's windy and rainy today; typical Dutch winter weather. Weird to think we're so far north of Wisconsin.

The view from our front windows in our apartment in Molenwijk
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2020-09-15 01:14 pm

Our Afvalpass is Working!

Here in Amstelveen, garbage and recycling goes into underground containers that get emptied by truck once in a while. The recyclables are all open-access, but the garbage container requires an RFID card to unlock.
Our card stopped working last week, so we've had a bag of garbage sitting in the hallway outside our unit since, like, Thursday. (As far as I can tell, we're the only people living in our 3-unit apartment cluster above the electronics store, otherwise I wouldn't have left it out there.) Miriam called on Friday to find out what was up, and they said they'd call us back on Monday.

Turns out that, in Amstelveen (and probably other places that have them?), the garbage cards (afvalpassen) are tied to addresses. When you move, you leave the card in the apartment/house for the next residents. Ours, though, was assigned to apartment C instead of our unit, A. C just reported their card missing (why now after we've been here a year? I still never see anyone there) and got a new one, so ours was deactivated. But ours is supposed to be working again today (it takes a day to process through the system), so I can bring our stinky garbage out. Yay!

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Also, still playing the old gold box games. I made it through Pool of Radiance and am on to Curse of the Azure Bonds. The interface improvements are *so* good!
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2019-03-15 09:37 am

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To borrow a phrase I like from Kate, my bike will be getting a spa treatment until the 29th. It's a bit of a wait, but Uptown had a lot of customers for their Winter/Spring special! I'll actually be away for a week during that span anyway, and knowing that the weather should be good enough to start riding just about every day by then is exciting!

My condo is a mess because my foot has been hurting too much to stand up very long and clean. It's been about a week now, and I finally feel only reminder-level discomfort from it rather than alarm-level discomfort. I was getting scared that I had a hairline fracture or something. It seemed pretty unlikely given that the pain was in an area of soft tissue at the top of my foot, but it lasted long enough to make me really concerned. I've been giving it lots of rest and had to skip working at the shelter even though I would have loved to be out in this weather. Hopefully I can be more mobile this weekend.

It's going to be a busy weekend! I drove to work today so I can leave to see Erik right after work. I'm staying at his place in Elgin overnight, then driving back to Evanston in the early afternoon to give Danae a ride to the airport to fly to the conference she's going to in Los Angeles. Saturday evening is Queer Contra in the city. I've kept wanting to go to that, and Erik is going to be there tonight and I'd love to get dressed up fancy and go dance, even though I have no experience. Regrettably, I'm not going to because I'm still worried about my foot. Maybe instead I can clean up a bit since after contra is done, Erik is visiting at my place for the night!

I'll have Sunday all to myself. Maybe I can finish the rest of my radio and move on to the next project.
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2019-01-29 07:48 am
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I keep looking at free listing on various places for bookshelves to hold the ones in my spare room that I have listed on Amazon. I seem them scattered around the suburbs frequently. However, while having more shelf space would be convenient, but not convenient enough for me to want to drive more than ten or fifteen minutes to get them. Eventually I'm sure there'll be an offer in Evanston. Or I'll find some in the alley behind my building again where the residents of the huge condo building behind ours leave their furniture they're throwing out. I got a great nice Ikea bookcase for our bedroom that way.

Work has shortened hours today through Thursday due to the weather. We open at 9 instead of 7 and close at five instead of ten. I'll probably come in at seven regardless; I don't want to have to flex my time or use PTO, and I like getting home when I normally do instead of too late to do anything useful.
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2017-08-05 11:36 pm
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Quiet Evening

What am I doing with my first night with the condo to myself? Listening to Enigma on my hi-fi and cleaning the living room and bedroom. I know how to party!
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2017-02-24 06:23 pm
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Home Alone

I just dropped Danae off at O'Hare airport for her flight to Oregon. She's attending CSCW, and was also accepted to a pre-conference doctoral colloquium where she is presenting on her work so far and will get feedback from other doctoral candidates at the same stage as well as some researchers in the field. I'm so happy she was accepted to the colloquium, and glad that she's attending a conference she's wanted to get to for several years.

For my part, I'm likely home alone most or all of the weekend (Nathan is usually at his boyfriend's place on weekends) and it's just him and me until Thursday when I pick Danae up again. I'm going to bike over to Lisa's place at some point this weekend to pick up the pink triangle necklace I commissioned from her (and drop off the La Croix I picked up on sale at twenty cents a can for her in partial payment). I'm going to get everything in the common space looking really nice, and then...I dunno. Relax. Listen to music and play with the new equalizer (it's pretty!). Play with the dog. Look at dog-walking jobs. Go for some bike rides. Maybe finally write something about therapy.

I guess I'm a little concerned. Having things to do for Danae often gives me some beneficial structure. Will I know what to do with myself when I'm alone? I've been meaning to get back to Spanish practice and do more reading. I also brought my (musical) keyboard with me from Kenosha when I went on Wednesday to do laundry and shopping. I think I'll work with that some. I have all these instruments (keyboard, classical guitar, theramin) but don't know how to play much of note (no pun intended) on any of them.

Danae's been pretty stressed about her presentations and things; wish her success!