stormdog: a woman with light skin and long brown hair that cascades over one shoulder. On her other side, she is holding a large plush shark against herself. She has pink fingernails and pink cat eye glasses (Default)
I am so close to being able to play through Prelude in C without making one or two little mistakes along the way. So close!

I'm also starting to work on The Sunlit Garden from Revolutionary Girl Utena a little bit. That's the song that Miki plays on the piano. But...I might switch over to the intro to Watermark instead? Dunno.

The job hunt is proceeding. I haven't heard back from anything I've applied to yet, but I'm still trying.

I'm going to be driving to Wisconsin on the 23rd to visit my mom and folks there. I'll be back in Hamilton on the 30 and Miriam and I will spend NYE with a couple we met through queer community events here who are also Covid cautious. That will be really nice! It's been a long time since I've been with friends on a NYE.

And lastly...

It's true. As Miriam said today, I'm very bad at hookups. 😂

I've been talking more with Mississauga girl and I have a crush...

Which doesn't mean it will go anywhere in particular. But yeah. I'm seeing her again on Friday.
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
I'm not the only member of my family who wants to leave the US. When visiting my parents yesterday, my mother said the two of them have been talking about possibly moving to Ireland when they retire. My mother is eligible for citizenship through her dad's side of the family, though I am not. Alas. I wish it was easier for people to change countries to get away from stupid and crazy.

As well as one at Penn State in Pennsylvania, Danae's current prospects for a position include Canada, the Netherlands (Amsterdam), and Hong Kong. She also got an offer to interview in Oxford, England, but they wanted her to come in person. That is not going to happen unless they'll pay for the trip. It's weird to be thinking of going to all these places. I've never thought I'd be in a position to go further away from the US than Canada or Mexico. Heck, I can't even afford to travel in the US unless I sleep in my car and eat Chef Boyardee out of the can. Good thing I kind of enjoy that... Still, it would be nice if a decent motel was something we could manage so Danae could travel with me more.
stormdog: (Kira)
I have found the following free dental care events, mostly associated with the Mission of Mercy project. I have been to several of these events for dental care and have had positive experiences. If you'd like to know more about them, please ask. Please also pass this along to people in my area who might like to ride or drive with me.

Right now, it looks like the June 7th event in Pennsylvania is the first one I can reasonably make it to. if you'd like to come with, please let me know. Cost sharing is appreciated, but unnecessary. The dental care itself is completely free.

I have dental insurance and cannot afford dental care without fear of using money needed for future requirements and emergencies. I'm still in a much better place than a lot of people. I want to make some comment about the state of healthcare in my country, but I don't even know what to say at this point.

4-26 Kansas (Pittsburgh)
5-17 Indiana (Fort Wayne)
5-18 Ohio (Cleveland) - must make appointments http://medworksusa.org/clinic/nfp-free-medical- womens-health-and-dental-clinic/
6-07 Pennsylvania (Wilkes-Barre)
6-28 Mississippi (Greenwood)
7-26 Pennsylvanis (Pittsburgh)
9-13 Maryland (College Park)
9-20 Iowa
10-4 Colorado (Western Slope)
stormdog: a woman with light skin and long brown hair that cascades over one shoulder. On her other side, she is holding a large plush shark against herself. She has pink fingernails and pink cat eye glasses (Default)
I never said anything about the Canada trip. That's because I didn't end up going due to lack of passport. Our best guess is that it was stolen from the glove box of our car months and months ago when someone rifled through it. I didn't know it was in there and I thought it was in the pile of Danae's passports, so I never realized it was missing. Oops!

I have tomorrow off work to go to the post office and apply for a replacement. I'll be working Saturday again to make up, but that's ok.
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
My plans are settled for the eclipse! I'm driving to Chester the day before with my mother and youngest brother. Maybe we'll see a couple things on the way south like the Woodstock Memorial or the telephone museum in Gridley. Maybe while we're near Chester, we'll visit the first capital of Illinois, Kaskaskia. (All places I saw on my Illinois trip a few years ago.) Regardless of what else we do, Chester is right in the middle of totality, so it should be a good show! There'll be many Popeye statues without shadows that day....

Finally, a road trip!

Home Alone

Feb. 24th, 2017 06:23 pm
stormdog: (sleep)
I just dropped Danae off at O'Hare airport for her flight to Oregon. She's attending CSCW, and was also accepted to a pre-conference doctoral colloquium where she is presenting on her work so far and will get feedback from other doctoral candidates at the same stage as well as some researchers in the field. I'm so happy she was accepted to the colloquium, and glad that she's attending a conference she's wanted to get to for several years.

For my part, I'm likely home alone most or all of the weekend (Nathan is usually at his boyfriend's place on weekends) and it's just him and me until Thursday when I pick Danae up again. I'm going to bike over to Lisa's place at some point this weekend to pick up the pink triangle necklace I commissioned from her (and drop off the La Croix I picked up on sale at twenty cents a can for her in partial payment). I'm going to get everything in the common space looking really nice, and then...I dunno. Relax. Listen to music and play with the new equalizer (it's pretty!). Play with the dog. Look at dog-walking jobs. Go for some bike rides. Maybe finally write something about therapy.

I guess I'm a little concerned. Having things to do for Danae often gives me some beneficial structure. Will I know what to do with myself when I'm alone? I've been meaning to get back to Spanish practice and do more reading. I also brought my (musical) keyboard with me from Kenosha when I went on Wednesday to do laundry and shopping. I think I'll work with that some. I have all these instruments (keyboard, classical guitar, theramin) but don't know how to play much of note (no pun intended) on any of them.

Danae's been pretty stressed about her presentations and things; wish her success!

Traveling!

Dec. 8th, 2016 09:39 am
stormdog: (Kira)
Space buns!

Space Buns!

During a trip to the Wisconsin State High School Theatre Festival, my dad's students decided it was Space Buns Saturday. All the students (the ones with long enough hair anyway) had space buns. Of course I let them do mine too!

I want to start doing more interesting things with my hair than always having it in a tail or up out of the way. Now that my wrist allows me to, I may start again to teach myself to braid my hair. I can do it on someone else, but I can't manage to do it on the back of my own head.

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The exciting news for today is that Danae and I are leaving to see her parents in Hamilton, Ontario tomorrow. We'll be there for about two weeks, leaving on the 23rd. Piper is coming with us, and is sadly unexcited by the prospect of becoming a canid international traveler. I'm going to the vet today to get her vaccination records for customs and some more syringes. Anyway, if you're in that Toronto/Hamilton area and would be interested in getting together, let me know! It would be fun to see Canadian friends I've never met in person.

I had a good meeting with my doctor yesterday. Danae was kind enough to come along at my request because I'm not the greatest advocate for my thoughts and needs sometimes. She told the doctor what I'd told her about hitting my head on the elevator wall on a particularly bad day recently, for instance, when I failed to mention it. It's hard for me to talk about that kind of behavior because I feel shame and embarrassment about it. I tend to downplay the amount of distress I'm feeling in general, taking refuge in more detached, factual descriptions of my activities, or abstracting worrisome activities into a general statement of how I've been doing (i.e. pretty badly the last few days, or really well this week). I think there are a few reasons for that and I'm still thinking about what they are.

Anyway, I'm currently on 20mg of Escitalopram, which is the recommended maximum dose. Since my doctor is a GP she is hesitant to prescribe above that herself, though psychiatrists frequently do so. Danae has a lot of experience herself with SSRIs, and discussed the issue with my doctor, who agreed that it would be good to talk to that kind of specialist. The clinic I visit has just this year managed to gain an in-house psychiatrist. I'll have an appointment with a behavioral health person once I'm back from Canada, which will be part of the intake process as a patient of the psychiatrist as well. Then we'll have a co-management situation with my doctor, my psychiatrist, and my therapist. That sounds pretty good.

I'm up thirteen pounds since my last doctor visit in June. While I wish that wasn't the case, not least because many of my pants and shirts that I really like no longer fit, it's less weight than I was worried I might have gained with all the stress eating. Every time I start trying to manage my food again, the effort is pretty short-lived, which I suppose is another indication that, while things could be a lot worse, they could be rather better too.

Danae ordered me a surprise present; it's a bike bell that matches my helmet! Made by the same company, it's sky blue with a rainbow-colored butterfly, unicorn, and heart. I love it! It makes me want more rainbow stuff on my bike.
stormdog: (Kira)
Stones at the base of Horseshoe Falls.

Foot of Horseshoe Falls

I keep typoing Horseshoe Falls as "Horseshow Falls."
stormdog: (Kira)
At Niagara Falls today.

Gull at Niagara Falls
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
Danae came with me to Devil's Punchbowl today! She was kind enough to make a few images of me sitting near the rim, in the channel where the waterfall originates in wetter weather.

Sitting at Devil's Punchbowl

Kitty!

Jul. 10th, 2016 08:54 pm
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
I got to pet a neighbor cat, Gus, today. He's a mooch; he sits at the glass door to the back patio and looks in, in the hope of getting a slice of turkey or something. Which Danae's parents were nice enough to give him today. I sat on the steps and petted and snuggled him for a while. He seems to have a cold; I think he was trying to purr, but it just came out in a sniffly wheeze. Poor little thing. Seemed to be in fine spirits regardless.

I have some nice pictures from my trip today, and I'm debating whether I want to edit them here, or wait until I'm back in the states with my nicer monitor arrangement. (Here, I'm using a 13-year-old one I bought at a thrift store for $5. I'd thought there was an extra one here for some reason; I was wrong.) Maybe I'll wait until I have a few more days worth. I'm going to see more waterfalls tomorrow. There are so many around here!
stormdog: (Kira)
I'm really glad to have gone with Posi to CrossingsCon. I enjoyed the road trip itself; driving to new places and seeing new things makes me happy. Apart from that though, the convention reminded me that the underlying basis of science-fiction and fantasy fandom has always been literature. I didn't talk to a lot of people, but the two or three times I did end up in a conversation, at least part of it was centered on Diane Duane and her various books. This makes sense, as that was the motivation of the convention. I realized how good it is to talk to people about books that mean something to me, and about how they connect with the real world. I haven't felt that in the Chicago area in a long time.

I don't know why that seems to be missing in Chicago. Maybe I'm not talking to the right events, or talking to the right people there. Maybe I'm being too antisocial and withdrawn. Maybe I don't really know how to be social. I came back with the idea of starting an in-person book club. We'd read a sci-fi or fantasy novel, and have a face to face meeting once a month with some snacks and talk about the book. At least some, though not all, of the conversation about be about socio-political meaning and how it relates to our society and the world, either concretely or abstractly. I think we'd start with something that won the James Tiptree Jr. award for exploration of gender in sci-fi and fantasy. I emailed a few people and got a little bit of interest, but I'm not sure if it's going to be enough to make that happen. Maybe I don't have the mental energy to put it together right now. I dunno; maybe it will come together some day. It's nice to think about.

And in general, I wish Danae and I could meet more interesting, local people. Neither of us seems to really know how to do it anymore. My world feels awfully small lately, especially in terms of real-life companionship, and I haven't been very good at making it bigger.
stormdog: (Kira)
I did a thirteen mile round trip ride to a nearby 22 meter waterfall (Webster's Falls). It was gorgeous! And such a short distance to something so pretty! Though while it may have been short, it also involved climbing the Niagara Escarpment. I'm in pretty decent shape, but I had to stop and catch my breath once. Endomondo (my bike route tracking program) says the ride had over 700 feet of climb.

I also realized shortly after I started out that I must have bent my rear wheel yesterday on the rough pavement. Just a little, but enough that the wheel rubbed the brakes gently on each rotation. I disconnected it for today. Then, on the way down the escarpment, I got off and walked for a while because the front brakes were overheating and the rim was hot enough that I was worried the tube was going to explode. Gotta get that fixed.

Yesterday was an 18 mile trip through Hamilton that took me through the industrial district. Sadly, the roads that go through the steel yards are gated, but I still got to see some interesting facilities. I may go back and photograph a big electric substation with visually complex transformers and cooling fins, all corroded and patinaed.

There's actually quite a lot that's easily accessible by bike near Danae's parents' place. I'm pleasantly surprised!

In Canada

Jul. 4th, 2016 07:36 pm
stormdog: (Kira)
Danae and I just got back from Canada Computers with a wireless adapter for my desktop, so I am settled in with an internet connection again in Hamilton, Ontario. I'll try to catch up with people who contacted me, and write about our adventures. While I'm not being social with her parents, riding a bike, or playing Factorio. Sorry I've been out of touch!
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
Yes, I am now dreaming about Factorio. A Facebook friend wanted me to make sure the machines were getting enough sleep. *grins*

I had trouble getting to sleep and am up an hour earlier than I expected, so I'm doing some last-minute packing. I'm about to leave for New Jersey with Posi, who's picking us up around nine. I'm so excited to be out of my routine for a few days! I may not be here much during that span; be well!

Travel

Jun. 18th, 2016 11:31 pm
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
Danae and I will be doing some traveling in the near future!

From the 24th through the 26th, we will be in New Jersey with [livejournal.com profile] posicat for CrossingsCon, a convention centered on Diane Duane's Young Wizards books. From approximately the 2nd of July through the 18th of the same month, we'll be in the Toronto area (Hamilton) to visit Miriam's parents. If anyone in those areas would like to get together, let me know? I know several people in Toronto now who I've never met in person. That could be fun! And New Jersey is in the general vicinity of Long Island too....

Regardless, I'm really looking forward to some driving. I need to see some different places!
stormdog: (Kira)
Sorry I've been away!

I finally got into Kenosha this past Wednesday. I spent a few days there unloading and organizing stuff. Danae has a pretty demanding school related schedule right now; on Saturday she stole some time to come pick me up, but until then I was having a nice time hanging out with family. I didn't want to deal with writing something lengthy on my tablet, and in fact was mostly away from social media. Then, I spent the last day and a half here doing more organizing and putting away. I'm finally getting settled in, and will be here more consistently in the future. I missed you all!

I want to tell you the whole story of my drive here; it was an adventure! I'm glad I was by myself. If I feel at all responsible for someone else, delays and problems stress me out because of their impact on someone else. When I'm alone, it's all part of the unanticipated. I'm already looking back at it from the future and thinking of the stories I can tell even while I'm in the midst of it.

The night before I left, I was sitting in my underwear on the floor of my mostly empty apartment, removing the wheels from my bikes. A knock came at the door. I got dressed and opened it to find my landlord, who was there to warn me that there would be freezing rain in the morning. He suggested I move the truck to the street, in case the parking lot became so slick that it was impossible to get out. Seeing the wisdom in the suggestion, I did so. It would lengthen my last few trips with stuff, but there wasn't that much left. I finished the work and curled up on my blankets in the corner.

The next morning, the parking lot was basically a sheet of wet ice. So was the street in front of it, which climbs one of the steeper hills in the city of Syracuse. Loading the truck, I discovered that my remaining possessions made for rather more trips than it seemed possible they would the night before. I'd hoped to get on the road shortly after waking up, but it took more than an hour to cart the rest of my stuff over the slippery slopes. I also ended up leaving my chairs and dishes; I meant to get them to a thrift store, but it didn't quite happen. I apologized to my landlord in text. I also left my crockpot by mistake, but that's easy enough to replace.

Driving out of Syracuse and through New York state was slow. I was avoiding toll roads, so I ended up on some really sketchy routes, including a hilly dirt track in the area of Friendship (once known as Bloody Corners, according to Wikipedia). There, I lost momentum halfway up a hill and carefully rolled backward to the bottom in neutral before starting up again. With momentum on my side, I crested the rise and continued. The trip was taking much longer than I expected.

It wasn't too long, as the crow flies, from there to Mount Jewett, Pennsylvania and the Kinzua bridge. As the truck drove, it was a notably longer trip. Roads in the vicinity of Alleghany National Forest were winding paths through mountainous terrain. Plows were actively doing their work as I rolled along them, and I was happy to end up behind one on the occasions that I did. Significant elevation change had me worried that I'd get stuck halfway through an uphill passage again. Instead, I ended up sliding off the road on a pretty level portion of curved road. I was driving pretty cautiously; slow and paying active attention to the feel of the vehicle. So it surprised me when I found myself suddenly sliding gently but inevitably to the right, ending up in most of two feet of snow on the right shoulder. As Super-mechanic Juan put it when I told him the story, it was one of those moments where a calm assessment of the situation only produces the realization that there's nothing to be done, this is simply where your life is going right now.

Rocking back and forth made no progress, so I got out to assess the situation. I was safe and had a warm truck for shelter, but was clearly not going anywhere in the immediate future. I could call a tow truck, but that would cost money I didn't want to spend. The other apparent option was to try to dig myself out. I've often thought, when dealing with stuck cars, that if one were to just remove all the snow causing the issue, getting the vehicle moving again should be straight-forward. So, I started clearing a path in front of the truck. A right triangle, formed by the front of the truck, the side of the road, and the connecting line as the hypotenuse. (Look; I know math words!) I spent some forty-five minutes on that, working with my shoes and a single wool glove whose mate had disappeared some time back. I had maybe a sixth of it done (there was a lot of snow there!) when a helpful man came along in a Jeep and offered to try and pull me out. We got his nylon towing strap attached to the front axle and he gave it some gas. We moved the truck forward a good fifty yards or so, but it wasn't getting any closer to the road; it was just moving along the shoulder. Of greater concern, said shoulder was getting steeper and steeper as we moved. Finally, I waved out the window for him to stop, concerned tipping over. I was actually worried about getting out of the door, with the truck canted over some 25 or 30 degrees, but I disembarked and helped get the towing strap moved to the rear. The Jeep driver pulled me back around where I started, nestled in some disturbingly deep ruts in the snow and dirt, but couldn't make much progress from there. He gave it a couple of moving starts, which was working decently until his heavy nylon towing strop broke.

The driver was concerned about leaving me alone, but I assured him I'd be ok and he went on his way. I went back to clearing snow away when another man came along and offered his help. This guy was driving a pickup truck, and had not a nylon strap, but a heavy chain. We got it wrapped around the front axle and I once again gave the truck some gas and tried to aim it up the hill. It was to no avail, and soon I was at the worrisome portion of shoulder again. I'm not sure why they both wanted to go forward; the ground was flatter in general to the rear, and the shoulder less intimidating. On my suggestion, we decided to go the other way, but when I got under the truck to remove the chain, I couldn't. The force of the pulling had wedged the chain between the axle and some other piece of hardware; maybe a sway bar attachment. The helpful guy got under with a hammer (he had an amazing variety of tools in his truck!) and knocked the chain loose. Wrapping it around the metal step on the back, he used his truck to pull and yank me back down the road from whence I'd came. After some engine-revving, wheel-spinning, and rubber burning on both of our parts, I was back on the road! I effusively thanked the driver and lamented that I didn't have any cash on me to give him some pizza or beer money. One of the drawbacks of living a mostly cashless life these days.

Between the morning packing, the dangerous roads, the snowstorms, the slow-moving plows, and spending an hour and a half or so on the side of the road, I was about five hours behind schedule when I finally arrived at the Kinzua bridge. It was kind of a ridiculous destination to drive to in a loaded moving truck, but I have no regrets; I'd do it again in a minute. (Though I'm glad I spend the extra $200 on insurance, and that I wasn't pulling a trailer on those roads.) I drove past the entrance the first time and had to turn around. I don't know why; somehow it was in my head that the bridge was on the other side of the road, so I ignored the sign for Kinzua Bridge State Park and continued on to Mount Jewett, three miles down the road, before turning around. Once I got back to the park, I decided the parking lot was snowy enough to be a bad idea, so I parked on the side of the road with my blinkers on and jumped out with my camera bag. I didn't bother with my jacket. Another visitor to the bridge asked me what the secret was to staying warm in just a t-shirt as I walked out on the bridge in the chill wind hundreds of feet above the valley floor. I said that riding in a hot truck for twelve hours or so did the trick for me.

It's difficult to describe the bridge, and I don't have my camera card reader here so I'll have to post pictures after my next trip to Kenosha and back. It's one of those things whose scale just seems too large to contextualize it as a human-made object. It's a relic from the age of steam whose like will not be created again. It was a memorable, amazing thing to see and I'll write more about it when I have some pictures to share.

From there, I decided it was time to head straight for my destination. The weather had cleared up for my bridge excursion, but once I was on the road the snow and rain returned. Somewhere in Ohio, things were bad enough that there were brief spans where I couldn't even see motion of the road ahead of me for the snow. I crawled off onto the shoulder with my hazards on, made a social media update, and napped. I slept later that night too, finding a space in a Wal-Mart parking lot in eastern Indiana in the wee-hours of the morning. I slept until the truck got cold enough to wake me. I started the engine and slept long enough for the heat to wake me, then turned the truck off. I repeated that cycle for four hours or so, waking up with a much clearer head and a headache to accompany it. A couple of Aspirin took the edge off and I continued on to Illinois, finally arriving in Evanston around 7 or 8 if memory serves. I juggled Danae's car and my truck to make room to park it, snuggled my partner who I was giddy with joy to see again, and fell asleep.

I'm getting settled in here, though there's still a lot of organizing to do. And getting rid of crap. I have *so* much stuff and I need to cut down. But more on that later.

It's good to back here. I've missed you!
stormdog: (Tawas dog)
As I was looking at various highways in Google Earth last night, I got distracted. I followed highways north out of Vancouver toward Alaska, marveling at the vast swaths of largely uninhabited land. I zoomed in on a small town in the Yukon, at random, and switched to street view in the hope of finding the place's name. By dumb luck, in the 1,200-plus miles between BC and Alaska, I was across the street from this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sign_Post_Forest

Leave it to me to home in like a laser on kitschy tourist stuff in the middle of the wilderness. And now, I so badly want to go visit.

It would be wonderful, if I were independently wealthy, to try bicycling the Alaska Highway.

I am *so* looking forward to a road trip in a few days!
stormdog: (floyd)
Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] cranberrynomiko, I have a couple recordings of howler monkeys near Palenque posted. One is just the monkeys, and one has my awe-struck, possibly mildly embarrassing commentary.

I'm not sure what brought this to mind earlier, but I was thinking about how amazing an experience it was, being at such an old place; it was walking through crystallized time. It wasn't the focus of of the trip as a whole, which was primarily concerned with working with Escuelas Para Chiapas / Schools for Chiapas and working with the Zapatistas for a week. But it was one of the most memorable experiences for me.

Here's the monkeys on their own:

https://soundgasm.net/u/stormdog/Howler-Monkeys-Chiapas-Mexico

And here's a recording with my, perhaps mildly embarrassing, commentary, made while lying in my hammock just before dawn and listening to the monkeys. We were told that they'd sound like dinosaurs off in the jungle. I was skeptical, but they really did. Swaying in a hammock in the dark in completely unfamiliar surroundings and with these strange calls off in the distance it was easy to drift off to some other space and time.

https://soundgasm.net/u/stormdog/Howler-Monkeys-and-Commentary-Chiapas-Mexico

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An image to go along with the sounds.

Mayan Ruins of Palenque - Chiapas, Mexico
stormdog: (sleep)
I had the worst night of sleep I can remember. Parts of me were aching and I kept turning around to be comfortable. The blankets stuck to me so I kept rolling out of them and getting cold. My brain was stuck in loops of thought. I was creating, maybe working on, some kind of geographical information index. I would index things by name, but then I had to stop and do it again by location, and stop and do it again by date, and then stop and do it again by name.... Just endless loops of that for hours and hours.

Finally Danae woke up to go to her conference and gave me some of her Tylenol with codeine. After she left, I laid down again and finally got some sleep. I just woke up about half an hour ago. I was thinking about going out to see some of the city. I didn't make it to Strawberry Fields when I was here before. But it's still cold and wet outside, and I'm still feeling a little sick (though much better), and I've gotten next to no work down so far this trip. I'm going to work on the annotated bibliography for my research design class, and think about where to get food when I get hungry which I imagine will happen soon.

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