I've always been afraid of mind-altering substances. Literally afraid of them. The idea of some external thing making my brain do things is distressing. I realize that's basically irrational since just about everything we consume, or don't, affects the functioning of the brain. But I've never been interested in alcohol or cannabis, or anything else like that.
If you'd asked me up until recent times, I'd have said that seemed unlikely to ever change. At this point, if I thought it would work, I might just try anything. I already self-medicate with food a lot though. I have some concern I'd overdo it with something like cannabis too, and just replace one problem with another.
What I could really use is a year or two without any major trauma or disaster happening, and without having to be in near-complete social isolation, and without seeing my partner in chronic, often disabling pain. I'm not holding my breath on those...
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Date: 2023-04-24 07:23 am (UTC)I've always been afraid of mind-altering substances. Literally afraid of them. The idea of some external thing making my brain do things is distressing. I realize that's basically irrational since just about everything we consume, or don't, affects the functioning of the brain. But I've never been interested in alcohol or cannabis, or anything else like that.
If you'd asked me up until recent times, I'd have said that seemed unlikely to ever change. At this point, if I thought it would work, I might just try anything. I already self-medicate with food a lot though. I have some concern I'd overdo it with something like cannabis too, and just replace one problem with another.
What I could really use is a year or two without any major trauma or disaster happening, and without having to be in near-complete social isolation, and without seeing my partner in chronic, often disabling pain. I'm not holding my breath on those...