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Sep. 15th, 2005 07:15 pmI had what felt like a profound, stream-of-consciousness essay written about the turn of the season and what it means to me. Unfortunately, it vanished into the ether during a computer reboot. Here the, are the remnants (I managed to save the last two paragraphs in a quick copy to a text file) combined with later fill-in writing which, lacking the spontanaiety of the moment, just seem to be nearly as good or cohesive. *sigh* I'd scrap the whole thing except that there were some ideas here that I really want to express. Just know this isn't writing at my best, so please forgive me.
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Today was the first time since the last turn of seasons that I've had to use the heater in my truck. As I walked out the door this morning, the sky was still grey from the rain that the wet of the ground, just a little more than the dew could account for, hinted at, and the chill in the air was a surprise, though not a very unpleasant one, that seemed to suit the mood. I wonder, after all the reading, talking, and thinking I've been doing about the coming energy crisis, how much like the past summer the coming one, and the ones after it, will be. But that's a different subject.
As much as I say that I fear change (I wouldn't use Windows when I first encountered it. I wanted to stick with DOS. The same was true when 95 came out; 3.1 was fine with me. Stop changing my interface you crazed lunatics!), this change of seasons is vitalizing. Perhaps the beginning of change in weather draws the life and warmth of the world into sharp focus by presaging it's imminent slumber. I think for me though, knowing that this change brings with it the vast promise and possibility of the future.
There are so many wonderful things to come in the future. So much time to be spend with family, friends, loved ones. So much time to spend on hobbies and passions. So much time to fill with all the good things there are to fill it with. So much time and space to get lost in.
The future is a wonderful place. It's so easy to be drawn in to the wonder of the future. It's easy to get so enraptured in the myriad possibilities that you forget about that fact that, if you spend all your time waiting in the wonder, the wonder, sooner or later, passes you by.
Life has changed so much for me. I don't want it to stop changing. I need to concentrate more on the changes that I want. I've never made resolutions tied in to the beginning of a new year, but it seems somehow appropriate to formulate an end of year resolution. As this year begins it's gradual fade into the next, as this season of warmth and energy fades into the tranquility and contemplation of winter, I will resolve to honor the continuity of these natural cycles with my own continuity. I will continue to grow. I will not let the infinity of wearying practicalities keep me from enjoying the magic and wonder of life.
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Today was the first time since the last turn of seasons that I've had to use the heater in my truck. As I walked out the door this morning, the sky was still grey from the rain that the wet of the ground, just a little more than the dew could account for, hinted at, and the chill in the air was a surprise, though not a very unpleasant one, that seemed to suit the mood. I wonder, after all the reading, talking, and thinking I've been doing about the coming energy crisis, how much like the past summer the coming one, and the ones after it, will be. But that's a different subject.
As much as I say that I fear change (I wouldn't use Windows when I first encountered it. I wanted to stick with DOS. The same was true when 95 came out; 3.1 was fine with me. Stop changing my interface you crazed lunatics!), this change of seasons is vitalizing. Perhaps the beginning of change in weather draws the life and warmth of the world into sharp focus by presaging it's imminent slumber. I think for me though, knowing that this change brings with it the vast promise and possibility of the future.
There are so many wonderful things to come in the future. So much time to be spend with family, friends, loved ones. So much time to spend on hobbies and passions. So much time to fill with all the good things there are to fill it with. So much time and space to get lost in.
The future is a wonderful place. It's so easy to be drawn in to the wonder of the future. It's easy to get so enraptured in the myriad possibilities that you forget about that fact that, if you spend all your time waiting in the wonder, the wonder, sooner or later, passes you by.
Life has changed so much for me. I don't want it to stop changing. I need to concentrate more on the changes that I want. I've never made resolutions tied in to the beginning of a new year, but it seems somehow appropriate to formulate an end of year resolution. As this year begins it's gradual fade into the next, as this season of warmth and energy fades into the tranquility and contemplation of winter, I will resolve to honor the continuity of these natural cycles with my own continuity. I will continue to grow. I will not let the infinity of wearying practicalities keep me from enjoying the magic and wonder of life.
