School Stress

I'm having such a hard time here. I just want to do anything else other than work on schoolwork. I'm feeling a stress-induced tightness in my chest this morning as I think about all the things I need to keep doing on a weekly basis. I don't know where to find time to start working on the term papers I'll need to have done.

I hope by the end of my first semester, I'll be feeling better about all this. Two years of this would be misery. I want to keep going with what I'm doing and get this degree. I think it's the right thing for me to do. But based exclusively on my feelings so far (and recognizing that it's only a very small sample of this experience), there's no chance I would choose to pursue a doctorate after this.

Gotta relax. Gotta get more organized. Gotta stop trying to find ways (like writing about them instead of working on them) of not dealing with things.

This is Where My Brain's At Right Now

"They were saying; phase lock loop. Neurological bonding. Video disc."

Eventually I'm going to have money to spend on buying this 4 LP set, now that I have a turntable and can play it.

"I think he's in some kind of pain. I think it's a pain cry."