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Apr. 2nd, 2018 09:41 amI think I'm reacting to Piper's adoption a bit like I reacted to King (our former housemate's cat) having died. As time passes, I'm feeling it more. It helps that Piper is with people who love her, but it's so hard not to wonder if she's confused or scared, and that makes me start feeling really sad. And because she's so dependent on careful management of her health, and I know what she's like when her blood sugar crashes, I worry about how well she's being taken care of.
The latter worry is not rational, and the former is unavoidable and will slowly pass, I hope. But it's hard. If my mental stability was as low as it was a year and a half ago when I started volunteering at the shelter, I'd be a wreck. There was one night when I was lying against Danae on the couch crying my eyes out because I couldn't stop thinking about how sad, confused, and scared the German Shepherd Dog I'd just met at the shelter that night must be about being in a kennel.
I dunno. It's hard for me to articulate how I feel, or in some ways even understand how I feel myself. As I write, feelings flit butterfly-like around my brain, disappearing into the woods or changing color in patches of sun or shadow.
I want to have another animal around the house. It's so strange not having one. Danae will find a cat who she loves (and who doesn't maker her sneeze), and we will take it in and love and snuggle it. Once the kitty's settled in though, I'd really like to foster another dog. Part of me wants to say that I'd like to not have one with special medical needs like Piper because it makes it harder to trust in someone else to take care of her, but in actuality I would take one again. I know that I *can* take care of animals that can be hard to manage, and that makes me feel like I can offer something special as a foster parent.
If I had space and land, I'd foster a big energetic dog, one who's hard to place because it seems intimidating, who needs some socializing and training, and I'd spend some time helping him or her be more adoptable. I have a small condo instead of space and land, but I can still help dogs who may not be as adoptable as others. I did that with Piper and I want to do it for more dogs.
Normally cute dog pictures make me smile, but for a few days at least it'll be other things distracting me. A variable power supply kit I ordered should be there when I get home, for instance! More soldering fun to jump into!
The latter worry is not rational, and the former is unavoidable and will slowly pass, I hope. But it's hard. If my mental stability was as low as it was a year and a half ago when I started volunteering at the shelter, I'd be a wreck. There was one night when I was lying against Danae on the couch crying my eyes out because I couldn't stop thinking about how sad, confused, and scared the German Shepherd Dog I'd just met at the shelter that night must be about being in a kennel.
I dunno. It's hard for me to articulate how I feel, or in some ways even understand how I feel myself. As I write, feelings flit butterfly-like around my brain, disappearing into the woods or changing color in patches of sun or shadow.
I want to have another animal around the house. It's so strange not having one. Danae will find a cat who she loves (and who doesn't maker her sneeze), and we will take it in and love and snuggle it. Once the kitty's settled in though, I'd really like to foster another dog. Part of me wants to say that I'd like to not have one with special medical needs like Piper because it makes it harder to trust in someone else to take care of her, but in actuality I would take one again. I know that I *can* take care of animals that can be hard to manage, and that makes me feel like I can offer something special as a foster parent.
If I had space and land, I'd foster a big energetic dog, one who's hard to place because it seems intimidating, who needs some socializing and training, and I'd spend some time helping him or her be more adoptable. I have a small condo instead of space and land, but I can still help dogs who may not be as adoptable as others. I did that with Piper and I want to do it for more dogs.
Normally cute dog pictures make me smile, but for a few days at least it'll be other things distracting me. A variable power supply kit I ordered should be there when I get home, for instance! More soldering fun to jump into!
