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After waiting months for the rheumatology appointment today, and spending one of those months trying and failing to get the test that LifeLabs failed to run done, there was no appointment this morning. The doctor's assistant called and said the doctor tried calling Miriam but she never answered. Miriam and I were both sitting on the couch, waiting for this call. We gave the assistant my cell phone, but apparently that didn't work either. The doctor is going to try to talk to Miriam again at 4:30 via Zoom. We think: we never actually talked to her and the assistant isn't great at communication.

Miriam is probably handling this better than I am. I'm trying to work on helping with her slides for lecture today and trying to write a cover letter for a job application, but I just want to lie down and cry. I would drive to Saskatoon (where the office is) *right now* if we could just get answers. I'd drive *anywhere,* *right now*, to get answers.

ETA: Update on the doctor: she was unable to contact a number of people by phone today, possibly due to some kind of infrastructure problem and/or heavy snowfall in the Saskatoon area. She's rescheduled for tomorrow.

The relief I feel about this is enormous.

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Miriam and I exchanged a couple messages last night and today on a site for still-Coviding folks looking for social connections in the local area. Things like "Hey cutie, want to get together for some cuddles?" Which was a fun silly thing in the middle of a stressful morning.

But when she said she'd gotten a message from a cute girl, I momentarily forgot that I'd sent her something there and that she was probably talking about me, and for a moment, I was really excited for her. I would love so much for her to be in a position where she was able to and wanted to date!

There are a lot of things that make it hard right now, some the same between us, and others unique to our personal situation. Hopefully someday, though, for both of us.

I have exchanged a couple of messages with someone who's still coviding whom I met through the Reddit T4T group in the last week: there's a start! She's far away (all I know is that she's on the US west coast), but even having someone to be flirty online with would be pretty great.