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I wanted to go for a ride but my ears get cold at this temperature. Just now, I looked in my bike stuff I brought up from Kenosha and I found one, but not the other, of the ear-cover flaps I'd forgotten about that came with my bike helmet. I looked through everything and couldn't find it the other one, and it felt symbolic of the many things, physical and otherwise, I've lost since moving to Europe and it made me tear up.

I'm having some trouble with this sort of thing in the last few days. Yesterday, I played some of the Final Fantasy VII remake for the first time and loved how faithful the recreation was in certain parts. But it also reminded me strongly of playing that game for the first time at home with my family in Kenosha, and that made me cry too.

Things are reminding me of times when I was fundamentally happy and satisfied with my life. I haven't been, since Europe and Covid, and it's hard to be reminded.

I'm so grateful for Miriam's understanding, reassuring presence.

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I ordered a bike trailer today for doing grocery pickup. It has the largest carrying box of the ones that were not hugely expensive. It's not as highly rated and reviewed as some, but it seems like it's likely to be decent. I get really anxious spending any significant amount like this: I fear I'll get the wrong thing and have wasted the money. But if it turns out to be crap, I have 30 days to return it. Hopefully it will be ok.

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