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Feb. 12th, 2004 06:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stormdogIt's been a very thinky (the word thinky © Stormdog '04 all rights reserved unless you want to use it too...) weekend and week. I am still attempting to make not insignificant changes in the way I'm dealing with stress and with Andrea. Several issues are things that it seems to me that the folks in the ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
asperger community might have some insight on and I may post something there. In general though, I'm trying to be less clingy and to learn to understand both myself and my beloved better. Of course, I think that's pretty much a life long goal for most anyone in a relationship, isn't it? *smiles*
I had a really great time with my family who were visiting from Wisconsin on the weekend, including my brothers girlfriend, Lara, who I adore. We visited John King books and Belle Isle to feed the feral deer who roam around the island of their own volition (they seem to have disappeared though). We found instead a large fountain that the city of Detroit neglected to turn off for the winter. At least I assume it was large. I actually couldn't see it as it was entirely buried under a column of ice. And it was still running. We could hear water spraying inside and see a trickle running out from it. I found it a really amazing example of, if not urban entropy exactly, then perhaps urban disregard. I took some pictures which I may post one of if I figure out where I saved them to. My parents and family loved the bookstore of course, and also hugely enjoyed themselves at Eastern Market, which is a sort of huge farmer's market combined with small retail shops surrounding it on the east side of Detroit proper. There really isn't anything like it in Kenosha or environs, and my parents, having experienced it, wish there was. It was so very good having all of my family out here to see us. I still miss them terribly.
I've been wondering about how much I miss my family in Wisconsin. I worry that it's too much sometimes. But I don't really think it is. I mean, I'm dealing with it pretty well. Sometimes something reminds me of how far away I am from them or of the things we used to do together and I feel down for a while. I had to hold back tears while talking to my brother on the phone last night before going to bed. It's just that, for so long, they were the only people I had. I don't think I'm ever going to stop missing being with them, but I am getting better at both dealing with it and doing something about it. In fact, right now, I'm playing Starcraft with my brother and talking to him on the phone. I'm using my headset phone to talk hands free and play at the same time. It's almost like being in the same room! *grins* I've been doing that for about an hour now and it just feels so good!
Val day feast is coming up this weekend. Although we haven't decided concretely I think, it looks liek we're probalby going. I've never been to a renasissance style event like that before and I'm a little bit nervous about dressing up in garb and dealing with all those people. But, Andrea said we may get to finally have a chance to dance (like with real people and music ands stuff *smile*), and we'll get to see a bunch of Andrea's faire friends. Should be fun.
Well, my brother's net connection came back up so I'm going back to playing with him. 'Till later!
asperger community might have some insight on and I may post something there. In general though, I'm trying to be less clingy and to learn to understand both myself and my beloved better. Of course, I think that's pretty much a life long goal for most anyone in a relationship, isn't it? *smiles*I had a really great time with my family who were visiting from Wisconsin on the weekend, including my brothers girlfriend, Lara, who I adore. We visited John King books and Belle Isle to feed the feral deer who roam around the island of their own volition (they seem to have disappeared though). We found instead a large fountain that the city of Detroit neglected to turn off for the winter. At least I assume it was large. I actually couldn't see it as it was entirely buried under a column of ice. And it was still running. We could hear water spraying inside and see a trickle running out from it. I found it a really amazing example of, if not urban entropy exactly, then perhaps urban disregard. I took some pictures which I may post one of if I figure out where I saved them to. My parents and family loved the bookstore of course, and also hugely enjoyed themselves at Eastern Market, which is a sort of huge farmer's market combined with small retail shops surrounding it on the east side of Detroit proper. There really isn't anything like it in Kenosha or environs, and my parents, having experienced it, wish there was. It was so very good having all of my family out here to see us. I still miss them terribly.
I've been wondering about how much I miss my family in Wisconsin. I worry that it's too much sometimes. But I don't really think it is. I mean, I'm dealing with it pretty well. Sometimes something reminds me of how far away I am from them or of the things we used to do together and I feel down for a while. I had to hold back tears while talking to my brother on the phone last night before going to bed. It's just that, for so long, they were the only people I had. I don't think I'm ever going to stop missing being with them, but I am getting better at both dealing with it and doing something about it. In fact, right now, I'm playing Starcraft with my brother and talking to him on the phone. I'm using my headset phone to talk hands free and play at the same time. It's almost like being in the same room! *grins* I've been doing that for about an hour now and it just feels so good!
Val day feast is coming up this weekend. Although we haven't decided concretely I think, it looks liek we're probalby going. I've never been to a renasissance style event like that before and I'm a little bit nervous about dressing up in garb and dealing with all those people. But, Andrea said we may get to finally have a chance to dance (like with real people and music ands stuff *smile*), and we'll get to see a bunch of Andrea's faire friends. Should be fun.
Well, my brother's net connection came back up so I'm going back to playing with him. 'Till later!
