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stormdogI heard back from the shelter manager yesterday; the job is mine if I want it. I do! *tailwags*
I'm starting on Tuesday. I let him know that I have dog walks to do for the first couple of weeks (I'm going to give Wag! two weeks notice to find new people for my walks during work hours), and he doesn't mind.
Of course, now I am deeply anxious that something will go wrong. I'll start working there and be incompetent. Or I'll spend too much time walking dogs and he'll be upset with me. Or Wag! will be really upset that I'm not finishing out my 90-day commitment on recurring walks I signed up for and I'll have to deal with that. This is the kind of reaction I have always had to significant changes of circumstance. Now, though, I am a lot more self-aware and have better tools to deal with that anxiety. It's still difficult and makes me want to curl up in a ball under blankets with some chocolate sometimes, but I'm managing it and it's getting better.
I'll be taking care of cats and bunnies. Cleaning their crates and the cat common spaces. Feeding them. Giving them medicine. Driving them to the vet. Customer service-type phone stuff. Janitorial stuff. Unloading the hay shipments for the bunnies and stacking them up in the closet they go in. I'll write about it as it goes.
At home, Danae and I will have to re-sort who's doing what chores and things, since I've been taking responsibility for dishes and cleaning and everything. With extra money coming in, she thinks it would be worth it to higher someone to come in and clean everything once a month. Personally, I've always felt like having cleaners is something 'rich people' do, but it might make sense for us.
I have the option of insurance after three months! Once that kicks in, I'm going to look into continuing my therapy. Since my current therapist is graduating, I need to find a new one anyway. I'd like to talk to someone about gender identity and how I form relationships, among other things.
I'm scared to even write about this because there's a part of me that thinks it will all fall apart before it starts. But rationally, I think this will be really good.
I'm starting on Tuesday. I let him know that I have dog walks to do for the first couple of weeks (I'm going to give Wag! two weeks notice to find new people for my walks during work hours), and he doesn't mind.
Of course, now I am deeply anxious that something will go wrong. I'll start working there and be incompetent. Or I'll spend too much time walking dogs and he'll be upset with me. Or Wag! will be really upset that I'm not finishing out my 90-day commitment on recurring walks I signed up for and I'll have to deal with that. This is the kind of reaction I have always had to significant changes of circumstance. Now, though, I am a lot more self-aware and have better tools to deal with that anxiety. It's still difficult and makes me want to curl up in a ball under blankets with some chocolate sometimes, but I'm managing it and it's getting better.
I'll be taking care of cats and bunnies. Cleaning their crates and the cat common spaces. Feeding them. Giving them medicine. Driving them to the vet. Customer service-type phone stuff. Janitorial stuff. Unloading the hay shipments for the bunnies and stacking them up in the closet they go in. I'll write about it as it goes.
At home, Danae and I will have to re-sort who's doing what chores and things, since I've been taking responsibility for dishes and cleaning and everything. With extra money coming in, she thinks it would be worth it to higher someone to come in and clean everything once a month. Personally, I've always felt like having cleaners is something 'rich people' do, but it might make sense for us.
I have the option of insurance after three months! Once that kicks in, I'm going to look into continuing my therapy. Since my current therapist is graduating, I need to find a new one anyway. I'd like to talk to someone about gender identity and how I form relationships, among other things.
I'm scared to even write about this because there's a part of me that thinks it will all fall apart before it starts. But rationally, I think this will be really good.
