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Dec. 18th, 2017 10:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stormdogI tracked down the correct contact with my insurance and confirmed that the therapist I met a couple weeks ago is covered by my plan. It came as a big relief. I had a deep depressive spell the Friday evening I got the email from them (the therapist) saying my insurance said they didn't cover psychotherapy. For much of the weekend I was in that state I've come to know too well of having no motivation to do anything except overeat.
It was a hard blow for two reasons. First, I really liked the therapist at our first meeting and thought we could be a good fit, so it felt like a directly personal loss. Second, after meeting a therapist specifically to talk about things that have significantly limited me for years, then being told I wasn't allowed to see them, I started catastrophizing about spending another five or ten years not knowing how to pursue the things I want.
I was mostly better for work on Monday, but hearing on Thursday (I think) that insurance would work after all and that I hadn't completely failed at reading the documents and they hadn't lied to me about what I was entitled to felt like a reprieve from a mental prison. So starting next week, I'll be visiting them on Wednesdays after work.
It was a hard blow for two reasons. First, I really liked the therapist at our first meeting and thought we could be a good fit, so it felt like a directly personal loss. Second, after meeting a therapist specifically to talk about things that have significantly limited me for years, then being told I wasn't allowed to see them, I started catastrophizing about spending another five or ten years not knowing how to pursue the things I want.
I was mostly better for work on Monday, but hearing on Thursday (I think) that insurance would work after all and that I hadn't completely failed at reading the documents and they hadn't lied to me about what I was entitled to felt like a reprieve from a mental prison. So starting next week, I'll be visiting them on Wednesdays after work.
