I'm a Real Dutch Resident Now

[stormdog]

I parked at one of the two-level bike racks for the first time yesterday. I was at the local expat center for my appointment to get a BSN and be a legal Dutch resident.



I keep wondering whether any of the people who make memes about cute ways to deal with impostor syndrome have ever had impostor syndrome or known anyone who does. Or maybe mine is worse than most. I can't see any of them working, and most would just make me more anxious. The ones that are based on some kind of rejection of the concept of being an impostor are impossible; if they weren't, I wouldn't have impostor syndrome. The ones that involve accepting my impostor status would make me even more anxious as part of accepting that I do not, in fact, belong where I am.

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[sabotabby]

This is true.

And I'm not saying that people who are into lifehacks are stupider than we are—maybe they're better at selectively tricking their brain. But I'm Broody McBroodface, which means I'm kinda good at systemic thinking, I over-analyze, I outsmart myself, and I'm incapable of things like meditation that everyone else seems to be able to learn how to do.