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I am so tired...

I've got about ninety percent of the packing done at this point. My keystrokes echo strangely in my empty room. I may just get to sleep now. The bicycle in the garage, a few more boxes, this computer... they can wait 'till the morning.

Said goodbye to a number of people today. The Dwarf, Bob, foreignlegion, and my dad since I won't be seeing him tomorrow. He'll be off to his student teaching job before I get up, in all likelihood. *sigh* This is a beginning, not an ending. As Peter Beagle wrote, there are no happy endings because nothing ends. Still, I will miss him, my mother, everyone. I would have liked a chance to see a few other people in person; daveqat, Synicism, boixboi, emrldgirrl, Lisa... The week I had planned to use to visit people turned into working for Kenzer. I suppose I just have to realize that I'll be back in the area and I will see them again. Maybe I'll be able to spend more time in online chatting with some of them. I know I've hardly been on at all recently. I just haven't quite felt like I've had the time. Of course, first I have to figure out what we're doing for an internet connection. But I'm rambling.

I said goodbye to my theatre today too. I drove down to drop off a few things that had followed me home and needed to go back before I leave. I spent a time wandering the building, seeing if anything of mine had inadvertantly been left anywhere about and just... walking through one last time. Finally I walked back out to the front lobby, looked back, spoke my farewell, and headed back home.

My family went out for dinner with my grandparents who came by to see me off. We consumed large quantities of pizza, got to talk for an hour or so, and had a really nice time. My grandfather gave me a going away present; a well used smithing hammer. A hammer that he crafted himself. Though I probably didn't express it well, I was touched beyond words by such a gift. I feel like there's such a wonderful energy in it; the energy of the forge, the energy of my grandfather... I look forward to someday having the space and equipment to have my own smithy and being able to use that hammer on my own works.

I am exhausted. I have to get up early in the morning to finish packing and leave. I miss my raccoon terribly. There is nothing I long for more than a few more hours in her arms. And tomorrow... tomorrow I get to be with her for good. I could never have imagined being at this point in my life a year ago. Nearly seven months ago I dared to dream of it. Tomorrow, my dreams come true. I am so very lucky...

Well. I don't know when I'm next going to be online, so until I see you, speak to you, chat with you, or hear from you again my friends and loved ones, god/dess watch over you.