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Dad update:

Surgery will most likely be happening on Monday. As with any major operation, there is some risk involved. I feel scared and anxious. I also feel somewhat detached at times, as has been my reaction to major mental turbulence, I think since I was young. I want to disassemble all of the thoughts and feelings in my head into component parts to feel like I understand them and have some level of control over them. There's that control thing again.... I'm also hopeful that once this is all over and done, he'll be feeling better than he has been in a long time.

I don't know that there will be much more to say on the subject until surgery occurs. I'll be visiting over the weekend, along with danaeris, who is coming up from Evanston to visit. I'm going to talk to my dad and find out what I can do for him and where he'd like me to be.

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Yay Dragon! *wags*

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I drove back from visiting my dad and mom at the hospital with James and Tim. It was good to see them both and make my dad feel good about having us all together. On the way home, I suggested custard from Leon's since we were going right by it. James was kind enough to buy a half-gallon when I realized they only took cash. It was super-tasty tonight.

I want to spend more time with my parents. I'm stressy about school and it's a little hard to concentrate there in the hospital. I'm going to try and get some stuff done tonight too, but I'm feeling kind of tired and worn out. And I have a hint of a suspicion that my throat is getting sore. My mother thinks she might be getting sick too and is staying away from my dad and wearing a mask as necessary. But I'm hoping for me it's just horaseness from talking loudly with my brothers over the road noise in my 19-year-old car with windows that don't close correctly.