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I'm trying to learn a new thing and the experience I'm having is not one I'm used to, though it's been more common over the past years, especially since the fire. New understandings won't stay in my head. I read a thing and turn it around in my head until it makes sense, and then ten seconds later it's gone. It's making it impossible for me to learn things that are new and complex and I hate it and it's scary and it's making me cry.

I really hope it's just trauma making my brain not work and that it won't be like this forever.