Another picture of me in new clothing!

I wore my new apron to make dinner today.

I still have a deep inner conflict between

*feeling that our social construction of gender, even as a spectrum between masc and fem, is both irrational and a significant form of oppression for so many people, and feeling like the whole concept should be abolished

*finding that doing/having frilly girl things (and adopting many other trappings of binary Western femininity) makes me ridiculously happy

But making choices that are rational and ignore my emotions led to me making some of the worst decisions of my life. Lately, I am pursuing the irrational joy, at least sometimes, over rationality. I can see that joy on my face here, and it's worth it.