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Mar. 8th, 2007 11:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stormdogI just had two people come through my (so to speak) office who I know that I've seen a good hundred times while working here. One of them is even physically distinctive enough that I'm dead certain I've seen her before and can even remember vague cicrusmstances of a couple of interactions. Yet I also have no way at all of figuring out what their names are and, thus, figuring out, in any useful sense, who they are.
I can't begin to imagine how awkward it would be to ask someone I've been working with for nearly two years what their name is. I've come up with a lot of ways to fake my way around it. Sometimes I'll ask people what their last name is, acting like I know their first perfectly well. Sometimes I can ask them to leave their username and password on a sticky note for me, or if I have their computer in my hands I can look at the name of the machine and figure it out. But sometimes I don't have a valid pretense for asking someone their last name, or for their password, or for their computer. The person may have just come by to ask a quick question that, if I only knew who it was, I could email the answer to. How do you work around that? Sometime I can glimpse it on their badge, if they're wearing one, but the type is very small and can be hard to see without staring. Sometimes I wait until after they leave and ask my team lead, or![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
serinthia, but she hasn't been here very long and there are only so many times I can ask my team lead without it looking very weird.
Normally I manage to get along fine without being able to recognize people. I don't really think of myself as disabled. One of the advantages of having a job in IT is that, though I still have to deal with people face to face, it's much less often than I might in other occupations. I don't know why it's frustrating me so much right now. Probably just because other work stupidity is stressing me out at the same time.
I want a job where I can sit in my own little space and have to deal with maybe one or two other people whose faces I can get down just be rote memorization. I want to have a project to work on, all by myself, and just be absorbed by it and not deal with people. I'm just tired of people today, and tired of trying to pretend that I know who all of them are when a good seventy-five to eighty percent of the time I'm just faking it. Faking it really well maybe, but faking it none the less, and that gets to be really stressful.
I'm going to lunch now....
I can't begin to imagine how awkward it would be to ask someone I've been working with for nearly two years what their name is. I've come up with a lot of ways to fake my way around it. Sometimes I'll ask people what their last name is, acting like I know their first perfectly well. Sometimes I can ask them to leave their username and password on a sticky note for me, or if I have their computer in my hands I can look at the name of the machine and figure it out. But sometimes I don't have a valid pretense for asking someone their last name, or for their password, or for their computer. The person may have just come by to ask a quick question that, if I only knew who it was, I could email the answer to. How do you work around that? Sometime I can glimpse it on their badge, if they're wearing one, but the type is very small and can be hard to see without staring. Sometimes I wait until after they leave and ask my team lead, or
serinthia, but she hasn't been here very long and there are only so many times I can ask my team lead without it looking very weird.Normally I manage to get along fine without being able to recognize people. I don't really think of myself as disabled. One of the advantages of having a job in IT is that, though I still have to deal with people face to face, it's much less often than I might in other occupations. I don't know why it's frustrating me so much right now. Probably just because other work stupidity is stressing me out at the same time.
I want a job where I can sit in my own little space and have to deal with maybe one or two other people whose faces I can get down just be rote memorization. I want to have a project to work on, all by myself, and just be absorbed by it and not deal with people. I'm just tired of people today, and tired of trying to pretend that I know who all of them are when a good seventy-five to eighty percent of the time I'm just faking it. Faking it really well maybe, but faking it none the less, and that gets to be really stressful.
I'm going to lunch now....
