My Voice

[stormdog]

I'll probably write more in depth about my own experience with gender euphoria and dysphoria at some point. But the more I understand and embrace being transgender, the more I also feel dysphoria in ways I hadn't before.

I need to transcribe an interview I did for school, and I think I've been putting it off because listening to my own voice gives me pretty uncomfortable dysphoria.

Comments

[cmcmck]

That's a very common experience!

Voice is a thing that many people don't understand to be a major vector of dysphoria- I was lucky in having PAIS as it mean my voice only partially 'broke' and I was able to 'unlearn' the results giving me a feminine voice in the contralto range.

Voice therapy is a thing worth considering.

[stormdog]

I'm glad that was a positive for you! It would be nice. My dad's voice is rather higher than mine, too, and he commented that he's sometimes mistaken for a woman on the phone. "Problems I'd like to have," I told him.

It looks like provincial insurance here *does* cover voice therapy! So as soon as I *have* provincial insurance, I'm looking into it.

[sabotabby]

I'm interested to read it!

[stormdog]

It may seem weird that I've felt more dysphoria about more things since I've started transitioning in the ways I can, but it makes logical sense. Now they're all things that make me self-conscious about presenting myself as fem, rather than things that didn't really affect the way I exist in the world. But the joy I've felt, and the sadness too, have both been so deep and worthwhile. It's part of how I know that I've made the right choice in transitioning.