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[stormdog]

I've come to feel like humans' job is basically to wander around Earth collecting traumas until we die.

Last night, on my way to the bathroom, my phone made a strange electrical noise and I had a crying panic attack over fears that the battery was going to overheat and start a fire.

This morning, Miriam slept through me waking up and getting out of bed. I'm doing my best to let her sleep because sleeping is really hard for her. But now that she's in a closed room where I can't see her, I'm scared that something horrible is going to happen to her. I think that one goes back to something that happened to a friend of the family decades ago that has never bothered me in this way before.

I should get some food.

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[sabotabby]

Pretty much. Fuck.

[armiphlage]

*hugs*

You may want to watch for signs of OCD-like checking. If it starts, best to start CBT right away.

CBT might be helpful anyway.

(bias note: having had OCD for over 20 years, everything looks like OCD to me).

[stormdog]

Thanks. I've been a little worried about that myself. Sometimes I feel a need to get up and make sure the oven and such things are off after lying down, but I've usually managed to not get up and check. Miriam once helped me logically think through what we did that evening how likely it was that the oven would still be on, and realizing that the possibility was pretty remote helped.

As far as CBT or other therapy, I'm still not a legal resident, and even if I was mental health coverage is SK is pretty awful. I don't feel like I can spend money on seeing a therapist regularly. There is an online CBT course that I've thought maybe I should do, but it's been hard to find motivation.