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Aug. 4th, 2003 11:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stormdogThis has been a long night for me. It's tough not having Andrea here. It's not easy for me when she or I have to go back home. Maybe I'm just being selfish. Maybe I just miss having someone who gives me so much attention. I miss having someone to share things with. I suppose It's kind of pathetic. I love my family, but so often I feel like they're busy and I'm intruding when I try to interact with them. I don't even really know what kind of interaction I want. I just want somebody to hug me and tell me it'll be ok...
I tried to teach myself how to use my new hair toy from the Bristol faire tonight. I really shouldn't try and do such things when I'm feeling down. It just got me more frustrated. All of the little things built up and sent me into what was just an unpleasant mood. It's been a long time since I've really been in that sort of slightly angry depression and it surprises me in retrospect. I don't get that way nearly as often as I used to, and I'm very glad. Having friends and having Andrea have pulled me so far away from that. And once I laid down in bed and just spent a little time by myself thinking, away from people and distractions, I pulled out of it much more quickly than I ever could have before. I just miss her so much. *sigh* I'll have to try the hair thing again when I have some good time. Maybe I'll get pictures then.
I started getting worried when I got home and hadn't heard from my dear one yet. I started getting really worried as time went on, despite knowing I was being silly. As I was taking my futon apart she called and told me she was safe at home, and I felt much better. I just couldn't bear anything happening to her.
I feel better after writing. The weekend was truly wonderful, as is any weekend we spend together. Having![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
emrldgirrl join us at the faire was a really nice thing too. I will probably write more about it tomorrow. For now, I'm not feeling depressed any longer, though I am feeling a touch of loneliness. Mainly though, I just feel tired. I'm going to bed now. Goodnight world.
I tried to teach myself how to use my new hair toy from the Bristol faire tonight. I really shouldn't try and do such things when I'm feeling down. It just got me more frustrated. All of the little things built up and sent me into what was just an unpleasant mood. It's been a long time since I've really been in that sort of slightly angry depression and it surprises me in retrospect. I don't get that way nearly as often as I used to, and I'm very glad. Having friends and having Andrea have pulled me so far away from that. And once I laid down in bed and just spent a little time by myself thinking, away from people and distractions, I pulled out of it much more quickly than I ever could have before. I just miss her so much. *sigh* I'll have to try the hair thing again when I have some good time. Maybe I'll get pictures then.
I started getting worried when I got home and hadn't heard from my dear one yet. I started getting really worried as time went on, despite knowing I was being silly. As I was taking my futon apart she called and told me she was safe at home, and I felt much better. I just couldn't bear anything happening to her.
I feel better after writing. The weekend was truly wonderful, as is any weekend we spend together. Having
emrldgirrl join us at the faire was a really nice thing too. I will probably write more about it tomorrow. For now, I'm not feeling depressed any longer, though I am feeling a touch of loneliness. Mainly though, I just feel tired. I'm going to bed now. Goodnight world.
