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Anxiety, Anime, Manga, Voice Therapy
Dec. 18th, 2024 11:55 pmI was a mess yesterday, for some reason. In FB I wrote:
"Anxiety is worse today and tonight than it's been for quite a while. I felt anxious and almost panicky driving around for errands this morning.I have my first appointment regarding voice therapy tomorrow morning at 9:15 and am anxious about everything and am having trouble relaxing enough to try to sleep.
I don't know why I'm a mess right now, but I want to be at the bottom of a cuddle pile with people petting my hair and telling me I'm a good girl and I'm doing my best and it'll be ok.
Gonna snuggle Miriam and my shark friends and breath."
That was some particularly bad mental weather, but the storm has passed, leaving just the usual clouds at the horizon.
I had my first voice therapy appointment today. It was primarily getting a baseline for the therapist on where I am in my transition and with my voice. It was interesting to look at the quantitative analysis of my voice after doing a recording and ask questions about it. I understood about 75% of the answers.
She said would have been very surprised if I hadn't already done some voice training or practice. Which I have, through those Youtube voice training videos I've mentioned. I have a second appointment in the new year and I'm really excited to get started on the work.
My homework in the meantime is to think about things about my voice that I like. Which is hard. But she talked about doing so a lot more broadly and about more than technicalities or the actual sound. Things like how I like reading to people. Maybe once I've thought about that for while, I'll write about it here.
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I just watched anime in which a high school girl made a bunch of zombies literally explode by reciting Lady Chatterly's Lover to them from memory. Train to the End of the World keeps getting weirder and I love it.
I'm still watching anime while walking on the treadmill. But I did, in fact, give up on Hidamari Sketch. At least for now. It was just...really dull. Some people really love it, and that's valid. I do not.
Instead I watched a couple episodes of something called Stardust Telepath. There's a girl who is terribly shy and socially anxious and finds it really hard to talk to other people. Becuse she has so much trouble with other humans, she has always daydreamed of meeting an alien and making friends with them. Then a new girl starts in her class who says she is an alien, and it seems quite possible she is. The Earth girl still has a lot of trouble talking to her, but the alien girl can use "foreheadpathy" to understand the Earth girl's thoughts while touching their foreheads together. It's really sweet! I'm not sure if there's going to be any romance, but it definitely counts as yuri to me.
Then, for a couple days, Miriam wanted to watch something with me, so it's been 5 episodes of Train to the End of the World. A technology company was ready to unveil the new generation of cell phone technology: 7G! But when it was activated, it entirely reshaped the world, turning people into animals, or making them tiny, or infesting them with mushrooms, or making them zombies. It's also possible that the entire rest of the world outside of the train line between Agano and Ikebukuro no longer exists, but we're not really sure? Four girls from Agano get onboard a train and make their way toward Ikebukuro, where the 7G thing started, and to find one of their friends who left Agano after a fight. As I noted, it keeps getting weirder, and I kind of love it.
On the manga front, I started reading the first volume of Goodbye, My Rose Garden. In Victorian England, a Japanese woman, Hanako, goes to England to meet a novelist whose work she loves passionately. She spends a month visiting the publisher every day, and is always turned away. Then, an aristocrat named Alice who also loves the same novelist meets her there and hires her to work on her estate. In time, during a discussion of the novelist's work, Alice says that she coul arrange for Hanako to meet him. But in return, Hanako must do one thing for Alice: she must kill her.
I think Alice is the ostensibly male novelist, personally. I'm enjoying this so far and the art is beautiful.
"Anxiety is worse today and tonight than it's been for quite a while. I felt anxious and almost panicky driving around for errands this morning.I have my first appointment regarding voice therapy tomorrow morning at 9:15 and am anxious about everything and am having trouble relaxing enough to try to sleep.
I don't know why I'm a mess right now, but I want to be at the bottom of a cuddle pile with people petting my hair and telling me I'm a good girl and I'm doing my best and it'll be ok.
Gonna snuggle Miriam and my shark friends and breath."
That was some particularly bad mental weather, but the storm has passed, leaving just the usual clouds at the horizon.
I had my first voice therapy appointment today. It was primarily getting a baseline for the therapist on where I am in my transition and with my voice. It was interesting to look at the quantitative analysis of my voice after doing a recording and ask questions about it. I understood about 75% of the answers.
She said would have been very surprised if I hadn't already done some voice training or practice. Which I have, through those Youtube voice training videos I've mentioned. I have a second appointment in the new year and I'm really excited to get started on the work.
My homework in the meantime is to think about things about my voice that I like. Which is hard. But she talked about doing so a lot more broadly and about more than technicalities or the actual sound. Things like how I like reading to people. Maybe once I've thought about that for while, I'll write about it here.
---
I just watched anime in which a high school girl made a bunch of zombies literally explode by reciting Lady Chatterly's Lover to them from memory. Train to the End of the World keeps getting weirder and I love it.
I'm still watching anime while walking on the treadmill. But I did, in fact, give up on Hidamari Sketch. At least for now. It was just...really dull. Some people really love it, and that's valid. I do not.
Instead I watched a couple episodes of something called Stardust Telepath. There's a girl who is terribly shy and socially anxious and finds it really hard to talk to other people. Becuse she has so much trouble with other humans, she has always daydreamed of meeting an alien and making friends with them. Then a new girl starts in her class who says she is an alien, and it seems quite possible she is. The Earth girl still has a lot of trouble talking to her, but the alien girl can use "foreheadpathy" to understand the Earth girl's thoughts while touching their foreheads together. It's really sweet! I'm not sure if there's going to be any romance, but it definitely counts as yuri to me.
Then, for a couple days, Miriam wanted to watch something with me, so it's been 5 episodes of Train to the End of the World. A technology company was ready to unveil the new generation of cell phone technology: 7G! But when it was activated, it entirely reshaped the world, turning people into animals, or making them tiny, or infesting them with mushrooms, or making them zombies. It's also possible that the entire rest of the world outside of the train line between Agano and Ikebukuro no longer exists, but we're not really sure? Four girls from Agano get onboard a train and make their way toward Ikebukuro, where the 7G thing started, and to find one of their friends who left Agano after a fight. As I noted, it keeps getting weirder, and I kind of love it.
On the manga front, I started reading the first volume of Goodbye, My Rose Garden. In Victorian England, a Japanese woman, Hanako, goes to England to meet a novelist whose work she loves passionately. She spends a month visiting the publisher every day, and is always turned away. Then, an aristocrat named Alice who also loves the same novelist meets her there and hires her to work on her estate. In time, during a discussion of the novelist's work, Alice says that she coul arrange for Hanako to meet him. But in return, Hanako must do one thing for Alice: she must kill her.
I think Alice is the ostensibly male novelist, personally. I'm enjoying this so far and the art is beautiful.
